so i haven't updated since april 9th. but uhh i'm doing good. got a great boyfriend. ya know... hangin out and shit.

ALI G!!!

i dont have your number anymore but saves the day and Alkaline Trio are playing on MAY 7th!!!!!!! please come to charlotte omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg

Life has been good lately. Hanging out with the boyfran, workin, school, getting suspended from school, etc. A guy I went to school with and had a few classes with shot his gf in the head a few weeks ago, so sad. Been hanging out with Stephanie and her precious baby girl, Shelbi. Being in love is the best feeling in the world. I never thought I'd feel this way about anyone, ever. But... here is 4567 pictures...( Read more... )

Things with David and I are going fantastic. I love that boy so much it's ridiculous. I'm somewhat stuck in a rut. I am confused on a bunch of crap (not having to deal with the bf)

School is over in 3 and a half months. I wish my friends would come get their hair done. It's cheap as crap. assholes.

i accidently slammed my finger in the door yesterday and now i cant cut hair for a while...

i have nothing to write about. i'm crazy about david killian.

hi.

New Years was fun. Everything has been good. Everything worked out for the better I guess. David is my boyfran now.

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hello. i'm posting a new one to say that everything is better and i dont feel how i did the last two entries. thankyouandbye. p.s. i'm at davids and he got me a penguin thingie and wrote a song for me and got me a penguin movie and i got him a huge monster tapestry thing of bob marley and he likes it he's gonna hang it in his kitchen. he drinks too much coffee. i like christmas. i like snow. i wish i went to mccadenville this year. only not really. i only have 17 min. bye.:)

what you don't know is that i'm about to meet you in a few minutes and tell you that i will never speak to you again. i will regret it as i drive home probably in tears. i was so happy when you told me how much you missed me and told me all those stories that probably made me the happiest person on this earth. but i can't do it anymore. i can't put myself what you put me through before. i am breaking a promise to myself and for once in my life i need to stick with it. this is probably going to be the hardest thing i've ever done. ever. i need you so bad. so so so bad. but i can't keep doing this to myself. i miss you so much. but i can't see you anymore. sorry.

Things are so much better. Went to the club for the first time since like Feb. and had a lot of fun. Too many free drinks and way too many guys. I must look completely different from the last time I went. Plus, my hair is now red and dark brown/red. I'm having a huge party at my house this weekend. Everyone is invited. It's the last night I get to get fucked up before my shit I'm having done on Tuesday which I'm super scared of. But I'll be fine. I am coloring hair in school right now LOVE IT. okay I'll upload pics later. bye

i've been in the hospital so sorry i havent talked to anyone. everything is okay. i'm just taking shit one day at a time. this shit is going to affect me for the rest of my life. i seriously just feel like dying.

"It's somewhat true that people might never change but it's also somewhat true that people grow up. Growing up doesn't necessarily mean someone has matured, growing up can go either way. Look deep inside yourself & search the meaning as to why a person can't leave your thoughts, to why he still lingers in your dreams, & why he still walks to the beat of your heart? Is it really him that you can't let go? Is it really him that you can't come to stop dreaming about? Or is it simply the idea of him that you had engraved in your head in which you cant distinguish the truth from a thought?

I used to once love a person who never once threatened his love for me, but just as the leaves on a cold autumn day withers away, our innocent infatuation came to an end. It took awhile for me to realize that who I missed, who I longed for & who I still held on to so strongly to was not who I once knew. The love that we had for each other was a beautiful portrait in which neither I nor he can deny, but it was later on that I realized is best to savor those moments instead of allowing it to destroy me. It's best to remember her for the person he once was & not the one who I simply can't let go of.

You see, there's a big difference to whom he once was to you & to who he is now in which you cant stop seeing in your dreams. Even if you had the chance to hold his hands again & to feel the beating of his heart next to yours, will his heart still play the same melody? Will his fingers still tap to the same beat? The innocent love that you once had, do you seriously think that it would remain the same? The years had gone by & many branches on a tree have had different leaves grow on them year in & year out, nothing stays the same. The only thing that you can do now is cherish the good memories & accept that this is now, today is what is important & not yesterdays broken promises."

shit is so tough right now. they found 2 lumps on my left ovary and they think it's cancerous. they also found a lump the size of a quarter in my right boob that is way different then all the other ones that they have found. my life is falling apart and I'm trying so hard to keep my head up and just smile. What's done is done. I'm trying not to be the old me right now but it's just so hard when that's all I'm used to being. Hopefully one day I'll grow up and realize right from wrong. Until then..

so everytime i update about how good things are shit seems to just hit the fan.
so i'm saving my ass by saying "god everything is horrible, it sucks, i want to die, i hate life, etc"

:D so happy.

things have been good. we're finally fully moved in to our new house.
i have been staying with david a lot. he's like my best fran. cuddy buddy.
right now we just woke up and i'm watching him play tiger woods... ugh.
i've been in my underwear ever since i got here. i love my life.

sorry i haven't talked to anyone lately. a lot of stuff has been going on and mom has been in the hospital and we've been moving into our new HOUSE. and i've been staying/living with david. i swear he is like my bestfriend. i feel like i can tell him anything in the world. it's awesome. i just got back from seeing him play tonight and i couldnt be in a more content mood. i'm working all day tomorrow and hopefully finding some sweet ass drugs and staying with him tomorrow and staying up all night laughing until we get sweet abs and doing other stuff until something bad happens which that wouldnt be good. i have a feeling it already has. BUT anywho, life is good now. Monday was by far the worst day of my life. I know I say that a lot, but it was so bad I couldnt tell anyone but David and my life will never be the same from then on. I hope everyone is doing okay. If you don't have my number then... sucks. You obviously don't care that much. Holla holla holla.

Lately I've been finding being friends with guys is a lot better than girls. My mom started her chemo pills this week. It's making her super weak and sick. My brother isn't helping anything because he doesn't understand anything that is going on and he continues to act his age and be psycho. My dad is never home because of work so it doesn't help anything. All I want to do is be at work now. Just so I can keep my mind off of everything. I don't worry about anything but keeping my mind off of what is really going on in my life right now. I don't talk about it much. And when I do my friends act like they don't hear me. Oh, darn, what friends I have. Speaking of friends, Jenny brought over 5 huge baggies of can tabs for my mom. Most amazing thing a friend has ever done for me. In case you didn't know if I collect 1,500 can tabs it pays for one of my moms cancer treatment. I know there is way more than 1,500 tabs in those baggies, so everyone else start saving!!

I want to go back to the beach so bad it's ridiculous. I think I'm losing my tan and it's bothering me. I start school in 4 weeks and I couldn't be happier.

If anyone knows any guys who are ready to get married, then let me know. Cya.

I'm back from the beach. Topsail Island was amazing. Having our our own house was awesome. Rum makes me so tired. It's ridiculous. I'm seriously thinking about moving to Wilmington whenever I get out of school in a year. That town is beautiful. It's like Boone with a beach. And you know Boone and the beach is my favorite place to be in the world. I'll post pictures later. I just got back from visiting David's new apartment. It was really nice. That little shit loves tickling me because "you make that stupid scream" haha. Okay, bed, work, parents are out of town this weekend. Let's hang out.

Myrtle Beach + airhorns + shitty hotels + rollercoasters = rule my life.

Dear Boys,
Leave me the fuck alone. I like how you all come flocking to me at once. But you all only want one thing! Back the fuck up because you ain't gettin any unless you've been in Iraq for the past 15 months, then I'll think about it.

Until then, leave me aloonnnnnnnnnnne.
Love, Allie.

Ohhhhh parties lately. I'm not drinking anymore until I see Danny



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